Unsent letter to an old Girlfriend who I know would just think I’m a pervert
I fantasize a lot about you with other guys.
I would have been really turned-on if you’d told me you’d gone crazy this past year and hooked up with lots of different guys. Ever since you told me about your one-night stands, I imagine you like that.
I can’t help it. I’ve always been fascinated by women’s sex-drive, experiences, desires, especially the really graphic, “animal” part. Especially since overhearing my ex-wife telling her friends about a black guy who had fucked her. It was after a party. I was in bed. She was drunk and talking too loud with her friends downstairs. I could hear everything thrugh the air-vent. She was talking about how “greeeeaaat” it was, and how “huuuuge” his cock was. “I thought I was going to die! But it was amazing.” And all her friends were dying to hear all the details. They asked how he compared to me. She said, “it was THIS much bigger,” (obviously indicating with her hand), and they all oohhed and aahhed.
If I heard that today, I wouldn’t be jealous, because I can be very objective, but of course at the time I was jealous. But really what bothered me was that when I’d asked her about cock-size, and her experiences and so on, she insisted that I was the biggest and she had no desire for anyone else. I was upset that she hadn’t told me the truth. It would have turned me on, because I really loved her.
I’m 99.9999% sure that she screwed around on me a lot. She was always flirting with other guys (especially black guys), staying out late, making up dumb stories about where she had been when, getting absurdly angry if I just asked her normal questions like, “so, what did you do today?” At the place we worked, there were about 10 young black guys and she was always flirting with them. Anyway, since then, I always kind of expected women to fool around, and I just wanted not to be lied to.
Another woman told me that she had just sucked this guy’s cock and then he fucked her in on the couch, while they were waiting for his girlfriend to come over. She said, “I don’t know why. I just couldn’t help myself.” I started making love to her, and asked her to tell me how good he was, how big his cock was and so on, but she wouldn’t tell me anything. “I just want to forget it.” That made me ten times more upset than her cheating.
She also told me that one time she got so horny when I was out one night that she took a cucumber from the fridge, and lay down in bed with it until it warmed up — she said she was so wet and horny and frustrated waiting, that when she finally fucked herself with it, it just slid in deep and she came right away. She was telling me this while we were fucking, and I asked her how deep she put it. She said, “about 9 or 10 inches”, and I asked, “would you like a real cock that big?”, and she said, “oh yeah!” and we both came.
I’d seen guys that big in changing rooms and so on, but never watched porn. It’s so fake anyway. Then, when I got the internet, I saw for the first time huge cocks hard. I mean, I’d only seen them soft before, and looked and wondered what my girlfriend or wife at that time would think or feel if they were with a guy like that. But seeing a big cock hard for the first time was a shock. So graphic!
Anyway, the combination of getting turned on by women with a high or uncontrollable sex-drive, and being unable to be really close to any woman these days, and being celibate for the past year, and the fact that licking pussy is my favorite thing about sex, and fantasizing about women forcing me to do it — all of this adds up and so I fantasize a lot (every day…) about you fooling around with lots of young, well-built, handsome guys, and then coming to me to tell your real feelings and secrets to.
This morning I woke up in the middle of a fantasy about you with another woman…
I don’t think of you as very lesbianish. But I was dreaming about you with a tall, blonde, gorgeous woman, with snow-white skin and pink nipples, and her long blonde hair falling on your face, mixing with your long black hair. I was thinking you’d love her big breasts, even if you were jealous.
She was wearing white lace panties and bra, and she was on top of you. You kissed for a long time. Then she took off her bra, and hung her tits in your face and you sucked on her nipples and squeezed them. You were wearing those sexy pink panties and a white slip.
While you were sucking on her tits, she rubbed her cunt against your leg, and her panties were soaking wet. Then you realized yours were too. Then she slid her hand over that beautiful hairy mound of yours, and cupped her hand over your pussy. She jsut held it there, and you were so horny you rubbed against her, getting softer and more and more wet, and moaned, and you were wishing she’d finger you.
Then she slipped her fingers inside — they just slid in nice and easy. First two, then three. Then she took off your panties and asked, “would you like my toungue…” You just smiled at her… Then she smiled back, then went down and started kissing your belly, and your thighs, and then, very gently, her soft lips on your labia, and then her tongue on your clit … and then I woke up with my cock rock hard.
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